Rachel Michelle

Starting Point      Every day, I find myself in a loop of sorts. And typically, I notice something that is making me feel uncomfortable. Could be the work I am doing. Could be an ache in my body, maybe it happens when I move my body for work things. And so I make the immediate conclusion that I need to find a better job. And then I start to wonder how I could make more money and not sacrifice my body for it. That's a bit extreme, but ultimately it is not. I want to be healthy and strong. And have fun. And I realize that life is seemingly flying along. I was a child yesterday, and am already a little less than halfway through the traditional trajectory of human existence. Woof.  At this point in my thought pattern, I begin to scramble for fun thoughts I can have. Usually, plans for some movement do the trick. I'll stop what I am doing and do a handstand. Or sit and breathe. Put the tool down and get a drink or have a snack. I have learned to not add criticism to this ...

Interest: What is my interest?  Well, first I ask myself what my limitations are, and in this current moment, it is that I cannot walk, quickly, or run, acro, or aerial, hike, or drive. Torn ACL and acute swelling and inflammation on my right knee.  I am bedridden.  Awaiting surgery, healing swelling, healing inflammation, icing, elevating, and doing pre-op physical therapy.  My thoughts wander. . .  I miss my dad. he died last year. took his own life. he had bipolar.  slow, like molasses, is how I feel in my energy. wanting to be quick, awake, ready. I feel how my physical body is drawing on all the resources it has to heal. I am giving it all I can to heal as well. Herbal teas, herbal oils with medicine for the swelling, pain, and to heal the damaged tissue within, as well as provide new collagen production for elastic and healthy joints.  The guilt builds when i rest without end. All day for a few weeks now. Here's the justification: Really it's a n...

  Clarity Falls As we speak, clarity falls.  I am a maker of Peace.  I listen to my guiding voice within.  I embody clear obedience What it tells me to do.  Winds of change blow steadily in  my life.  So I sail. I sail along where the wind guides me.  My gaze forward, chin slightly raised, heart open.  My intention for my embodiment is to hold fast. I journey with  a strong back, a soft front, and a wild heart.  Behind me, I am supported,  by earth, past and present understood, cheered on and  adored through and through.  My chest softens as I stand confidently in my ever-expanding provision and care. Knowing in my bones how deliciously delicate and  Robust being alive is.  And my heart alive and wild, Soft, tender, and fiercely devoted to love and expression.  My mission and purpose are to journey and illuminate. To make peace.  With intention and pleasure.  I am a maker of peace. For others ...

​ Today is a new beginning. I cast a protective circle around myself and those that I love and care for. Any Thing and any person that stands against the peace ease and abundance within that circle cannot enter. I recognize all the blessings and abundance already present in my life. I express my gratitude. And with fierceness and kindness I also accept my shadow. The desire for more. Even with gratitude of the present. My jealousy. I adore it so. I welcome all parts of myself. I do not hide or shame. Any parts of me. I Encourage everyone to do the same for themselves. Know your place. As we move into the year of the horse, we move with speed and action. Saturn and Aries supports long-term goals. Big things can move quickly. In a stable and sustainable way. Say yes to life. Say no to bullshit. Much love,  R 💗

 Documenting Time Life flowing. Eclipses are whipping through my reality. Falling heavily in love with my messy, gorgeous life.  Cutting ties, severing attachments,  Snipping chords, letting go,  Surrendering.  The thing is, this current I Am letting go into, to float on  Is not calm at the moment.  It is roaring, gushing water, a wild Kayak ride of a flow. It's fast-moving, and I am letting Go of the branch I have been  Clinging to for so many months. Let the life energy take me away. Onward. Psychic, patterns, labeled, rigid,  Unmoving, cold, rational. Now is a time for action. On purpose choices. From authenticity always, And sovereignty inside. Now is a time for heart and mind to come into alignment and to  go and move, flow and choose from There. So rooted is this. Secure in the Knowing that the Source of all That is us, stands and swears To support our growth and  Well-being. So it is. As above, so below. As within, so without...

  Chapter 3 – The unfolding, awakening As I mentioned at the end of the last chapter, my awakening began with a devotion to my meditative and movement practices, yoga, and silent, still meditation. What I soon discovered were feminine embodiment practices that stroke deeper and with power I had never felt before. It all started with a dance movement. Recording myself moving freely to music, and witnessing myself and being witnessed in my expression. Without judgment. Just love and acceptance and curiosity. This process allowed for acceptance of myself exactly where I was. I learned through a baseline of love and acceptance to listen to my intuition and internal wisdom and to allow myself to feel exactly how I felt. My head and heart were finally communicating and aligning. This was no small feat because living as an indoctrinated and programmed human in the Jesus-cult following world, my head ruled the day. I followed the rules, and I listened to the weekly poison poured into my be...