Put You In Your Place

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 Put You In Your Place


I want to put you in your place

Shut your mouth with a gag

and tie your wrists to the 

poles of the bed. 

Take away your ability to reply. 

I want to live freely

and in sin. 


I would like to be an animal. 

Bring the devil to me. 

May chaos reign.

I'm over it. 


Love the sinner and hate the sin. 

We will all die. I am going

to die. Why stay somewhere

I don't feel loved anymore. 


Secrets. Liar. Imposter. 

Miscreants. Exile. Out. 

Crime. Mental Illness. No help for

those struggling. 


Reclamation. 


Drama Queen. Save me! Are you 

the Damsel? Do you need rescuing? 

You are a scared little boy. 

Do you want to be had? I want to be 

had. 


Life has shocked me again to my core. 

I am not able to regain my 

center. Circumstances and words 

felt like a betrayal to my system. 


I need to be honest. 

Your emotions come first. Selfish!

I am not nothing. 

Save yourself. 


Love and scandal. 

What do we have that is worth enlivening? 

Divinely protected. 

Rotten. What does nourishment look like? 

I need to fill my cup. 


You're beautiful. 

Degradation. Worship. 

Fate is in my own hands. 


I'm sick of the contents of my brain. 

I am choosing my focus. Even though

all of my experience is shaded

with the feeling of sadness and 

disappointment still. 


I am happy to see you happy. 

And so I feel I must set you

free. 

Freedom to speak unsaid things. 

Perfect soul. Infallible body. 

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