Confusion

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 Confusion


I thought I needed you. 

I hoped you needed me too, 

so we could choose each other. 


No more longing. This emotion is running 

out of steam. I am tired of it. 

I make peace with it. 


Nihilist, ego-centric witch, 

who am I? 

Spirit! Source! Who am I? 


Who is I? What is I? 

My embodied soul? 

My self here. My soul in this body.


The body is me. I am quite attached to my body!

Scattered. 

Bring it in. Call it back. "Come home."


I speak softly to my room. 

My energy returning to me from all over the world. 

I feel quiet, reserved, present.  

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